I can’t sleep. Awake at four in the morning with a thousand thoughts running through my brain. The sunrise is on fire. The cat has finally settled down from his middle of the night acrobatics and is nuzzling my arm. Today will be Stella -Daddy day with Lindsay working in the studio, probably late into the night.
The thousand thoughts, full of “shoulds” and “whens” and “what ifs” will try to take hold of my day, but being with Stella, the power of Here and Now will overtake the thoughts, if I let it, and my day will be preserved for an eternity.
So. I drink my coffee and let the thoughts have their way. She’ll be awake soon and I will be closer to serenity.
father at fifty 
Hello Drew. Keep repeating the mantra ‘everything is as it should be and everything will be all right.’ Get’s me through troubled waters and the hour of the wolf 4 a.m. Miss you guys, love to all.
Thanks for the mantra. Need it. We think of you often. Best to all.